catching-up

Well, for some silly reason, blogger isn't allowing me to upload pictures *frowny face* So, I guess you'll just have to use your imagination on what I'm going to share. Phooey!

Joshua had his first Sooner Start evaluation on the 3rd. For those of you that don't know, Sooner Start is a free service (well, tax dollars pay for it really) that sends professionals to your home to assist in development. As you know, Joshua has had some speech delay. We found-out this past Tuesday that most of his speech delay can be blamed on his hearing. Joshua had a hearing screening and his right ear did not pass. We will re-screen in about 4 weeks and if there are no improvements, they will send us to either an Autolaryngologist (ear, nose and throat doctor) or an Audiologist. They're thinking more likely they'll send us to the ENT since Joshua has significant allergy problems. Joshua has had quite a few ear infections in the past. Unfortunately, that was passed down from me :-( I'm excited about the speech sessions though. They will start on the 26th and will most likely be bi-weekly to start.

This week, we've had so much going-on! I really wanted to crawl under a rock by mid-week. Tuesday was Joshua's hearing evaluation, Wednesday, Sooner Start came to further evaluate and set-up a speech schedule, yesterday morning Jenna had an ultrasound and an afternoon Sooner Start evaluation, and today, Sooner Start is coming for a second evaluation on Jenna. Somebody put me out of my misery! It may not sound like much, but it's a pain to try and keep the house clean and try to be a good mom in the process!!

Jenna's ultrasound yesterday morning was requested by her GI doctor (we met with him a couple of weeks ago). The ultrasound-tech spent nearly an hour looking at her spleen, liver, and pancreas. We found-out last week (via letter) that Jenna has a hardened spleen. I'm anxious to meet with the doctors again to find-out why the didn't tell us this at her appointment and to find-out more about the condition. So frustrating!!

Today, I just sat on the couch and cried. It's been a while since I've just let it all loose. Poor Joshua didn't know what to do, and Jenna slept through it all. Things are not all bad. I do need to point-out that our church has been absolutely amazing through all of this. Sunday, they gave me a bag of groceries and a grocery gift card. It's amazing how God provides and blesses when you aren't really anticipating it. We are truly blessed. Even though it seems like we're not going to make it through a month, God always provides. I hate to have a bad attitude, but I think I'm mostly just tired. I'm so appreciative, yet I just want to disappear for a while. Sometimes I feel like I'm at my breaking-point, and other times I feel like I can conquer the world! I know I wouldn't be able to make it at all if it weren't for the loving arms of the Lord. He carries me through the toughest times and shows me just how able He is. Faith...that was the word He gave me when I was pregnant with Jenna. I just have to keep reminding myself that FAITH will get me through. Wow, I sure sound selfish. Please pardon my venting. Somehow, this makes me feel somewhat better.

*big sigh*

Okay, Jenna's ready to get-up from her nap. My SIL has Joshua with her at the park, so I'm going to enjoy holding Jenna for a bit :-)