Well, Julie told me about her blogspot, so I just had to check it out. So, here I am...I couldn't resist ;-)
I'm typing and trying to get my mind off of Jenna's surgeries and Nick's laying on the bed reading about all the problems babies have when they have cleft. Somebody shoot me! I know he's just trying to help. I'm so scared! I know God's going to take such great care of her though...I surrendered her to Him. She is His child before mine; after all, I'm just here to help her prepare for His service. I had never thought about actually surrendering my children to the Lord until I saw an incredible story about a lady who surrendered her son to the Lord right before they were going to take him off of life support. She ran into another room and surrendered him...shortly after, he woke-up and told his parents he had been in heaven with Jesus learning the scriptures. To this day, her son (12-years-old) can quote any passage in the Bible (prior to his accident, he wasn't an avid reader of of the Scriptures). He's going to do mighty things for the Lord someday.
I didn't surrender Jenna because of this story...hoping the same would happen...I surrendered her because I just couldn't carry the burden of guilt anymore. I couldn't stop thinking about what I may have possibly done to cause this malformity. But you know...I feel now that it is part of God's plan.
